My Style

I tried love a couple times. I believe that it is only one true love.  But can you fall in love many times?
How many different type of love is it? How do you know it is true, do you believe they are your soulmate, do you believe in soulmates?
Love is painful. I felt heartbreak & u can literally feel the pain tugging at your heart. I love pain, but not that kind of pain. I like that it feel so damn good type of pain.
That I love you so much ..
Obsessive stalking type of love... I had that.. Not my style
Don't leave this House insecure I'm whip your ass when we get alone type of love.. Not my style
Friends w/ benefits fall in love just dangerous....  I had that. Not my style..
Let's try to make it work or stay together for the kids... Fk No.. I guess I don't deserve happiness.
U gonna be alone & nobody is going to love you like me... ) 😂😂 Not worth a response...

Shit, jumping on a flight, shopping until I drop, romance for one day one night, no explanations, no disrespect, no sexual touching. I love that. Jewels make me have erection orgasm so what kind of love is your style?
✌ Peace, Love,❤ & Happiness 😊 #Juswhoim
#NoJudgementZone

Get Mad

I didn't care about who was becoming President. I worked and still work in politics. I just started voting and never gave two shits about voting. My first vote was taken to prove my point and I made $50 because I still say its rigged.
When its time for Democrat or Republican they will be place accordingly. Our votes count, I laugh. People I have admit that I don't partake. I been ridiculed and I respect their reasonings. The fight for voting as far as being a woman and especially a woman with a carmel twist. I don't like to view things as color or everything is racist, even though the situation is possible when it comes to race.  I unfortunately, dealt with racial intend personally and if you read my blogs, I have shared my story.  I wasn't raised to see color and we all have prejudices and biases.
But I also seen people who resemble me, kill their own breed, their own neighbors, family, so no I DON'T DO OR DISCUSS politics or very sensitive topics, like LGBT or injustice in our judicial system.
NOT in MY Blog!

Look elsewhere and know that everyone has a right to be what they want, even if others feel it is wrong.  It took me time to accept that the world, human dignity, and human rights will continue to evolve. But I have enough respect for all that have had the courage to fight and speak out on what they feel, believe, and want.  I respect those fighting in the military, I respect those that never been acknowledged for being part of what has caused change, and I respect the right to voice opinions regardless if I do not agree, but I will not debate or belittle others.

This is JUSWHOIM.

My Family or Familia

My blogs are made to express myself. Other people blog for their own interest. I could blog about the stars, politics, the hottest topics, what is trending and what is out, what's I , what to watch, top rated, the hot topics of the day is always on social media, but IDGAF about discussing none of that shit. My blogs are meant to tell and share stories ...
So check it, I probably never told that I come from a close knit family, we try to be individualism but are really collectivism. Shit we been called a cult, we not a cult. Family is family, you help out family, you hold a particular standards, you just follow rules. Well that ancient ways have changed. People come to America and raise children here, you become corrupt and Begin disobeying. You have one half & this is not true. Not even a half holds traditional roles. Once your children or born here or been here for long, they become Americanized. 
What does that mean? ??
They're going be off the chain!! Hahaha.
But like most families, there will be those that are bare rathetness, seem ghetto, with a touch of class {as needed} because you will go on adventures, which includes street fights, street life, drugs and undercover thugs, frauds and all.  Everyone knows their roles. But like I always say.. What you see is not what you get. We have the most beautiful colorful mix of so many styles and cultures in my family. We are the most prettiest, beautiful, complicated, loving thugs.
Some of us have talked about capturing shit that goes down because when you tell a story, people mouths just drop open and laughter follows and I always hear, you need to write a book. Any time I can go to work and include my bosses and supervisors, you know it has to have been something they never experienced or ever heard of.   Anytime they can just seat and enjoy one of my real life stories I probably shared 3 years later and still reminisce, share, and compare which one is their favorites is hilarious to me.
But anyways...
If we still want to make it reality, especially now because reality TV is in. But, we won't need anything edited, scripted, Just raw.. but that's also another reason why we haven't proceed because some shit you still can't do on tv.  You would have to go in a special edition site to view our shenigans. CTFU!!
Idk who said fighting is a solution, but sometimes it is necessary even if our elders look down on us or we feel that we disgrace the family, but from what I was told my grandmother, little tiny Indian, Latino decendand fought when she got anger.  So is it genetics or just taught?? Well some of us have lot more spice than most.
We have enough women and same equal amount of males in my family.  We take in people that have had a hard life & treat them like they are blood.  We have annual family reunions in different states for almost 60 years or more.   No matter what we go through, we pull it back together and become one. We argue and fight literally among one another, but if one is lost, all they need to do is reach out and we pull them back up.
I wouldn't trade my family for shit because we have what lot of people are missing. LOVE
You cannot come to a family gathering and enter the rooms w/o  first kissing the elders and kissing everyone in the room or greet properly and you must leave the same way. No matter how much you smoked or drank. We don't leave w/o saying "I love you".
#FamilyValues

What's your social?

This year & βeyond will continue to be challenging. We can't do anything about unexpected situations & death. You deal with things in the way they are dealt, as delicate as possible while trying to control your emotions and pretending to be strong.
I survived; three car accidents, graduated college, losing loved ones, got a promotion in career in which I studied, traveling, maintaining health & loving it.
So let's not ignore what is going on in the world, but acknowledge and educate.  It doesn't matter who is running the country, but knowing that what changes could affect and effect you and the nation is all more reasons to know your mission, your purpose, and do you remain silent.
My position is to keep doing my part that equals positivity and keep subtracting negativity. Pray harder and  staying on a higher spiritual path.

Word of advise; Any new experiences, add it to your resume, keep pushing, advocate for what you strongly believe in and watch how you express yourself on social media outlets.
 
Since I brought it up, let's talk social media. Knowing the difference in each media will represent what you present. Facebook, you see faces but don' t really know the story in everyone's book. Some tell it all, but many need support and use FB to express how they feel at that moment.  When I see too much sadness, I get off because I'm tired of saying condolences, prayers, speed recovery, get better soon. I'm about laughter so changing the mood is what I rather do. Most of what I want to post is a story and will be to long, but I promise when you read to the end and catch some sly remarks, you will feel better. So why do I feel so guilty because I want to share happiness, progress, jokes, and not tears. So I refrain from sharing, but I express reality.
Instagram; must I really proceed? Great advertisement for serious and legit businesses. If has made people famous and make people feel famous. (I am not about the fraud hype).
Twitter; I am not a follower so I see no need to tweet.
Whisper; Great social app for anonymous readers.
SnapChat; Cute app for children and parent involvement. (Not about that filter life & I just don't get it).
I don't entertain any other known apps, especially dating sites.

The best moments of my life is not shared on social media and as bad as I want to share some real life shit, I can't because #1.. I'm so privy, #2 .. My change in career .. #3 .. That shit will be so hilarious people are going to want more #4 ... I don't like a lot attention (if you post a lot, attention you draw) #5,6,7,.. Don't dm me, I refuse to get messenger, and I get paid for writing.

One again, these are my thoughts, my feelings and I am not here to change your feelings or beliefs because I'm Just Who I Am!
Love & Peace.

Dark Secrets

We all have things in life that we would like to forget, pretend never happened, maybe we are in denial, but there are Some things we just do not want to face.

What are some of your most deepest darkest secrets? Are you running away from it, feel guilty, embarrassed, afraid, confused, shame or just never want to face it ever again?

They always say, what you do in the dark will come to light and I can say that this is true in my case.
We always think we can bury things and it will never arise, but sooner or later, this dark secret rises up and there seems like there is nowhere to run and your trying find a next place to hide.
Working in a field where you mentor and counsel, but also just in my personal life, people tell me some of their most deepest desires, needs, secrets and expressions. This may put you in a very unusual place because you may come across someone who you may or may not be able to relate with  and some things will take you by complete shock.
Counseling someone comes with many responsibilities; confidentiality, transference of your own beliefs, trust, guidance, dependence, admiration, feelings, confidence, and the list is continuous. We hear stories from child abuse (client may be the abuser and not the victim), sexual assault or abuse, gender complex (identity crisis), self harm, infidelity, sexual fantasies, drug addiction or abuse, social media, porn, online game addictions, racism, and list goes on.

I shared one of my darkest secrets and I do recommend therapy when you are struggling to find yourself, not feeling yourself for prolonged period or just in need for other support. Therapy has nothing to do with race, but a therapist, is someone who does not know you or have prejudge-mental biases towards you. It is easier to talk to a complete stranger rather than your closest friend(s) or acquaintance. 

For example; Someone I thought that was going to become closer than an acquaintance, I shared bits and pieces of myself and when I mentioned that I seek counseling, this acquaintance said to me, "Don't you think it is time to stop going to therapy?" (I don't and won't use an emoji).

Now try what we use to do, use imagination and everything that this person has told me about some of their most darkest secrets, it took everything in me to not let loose of those things that are still haunting them. But, I am still human underneath this skin. Now imagine that I let loose my ghettoness {I'm ratchet & a Classic}, tongue  slipped, and my mean interior, low tolerance, FOH attitude, and my professionalism is not part of this scenario. I would say ...

BITCH PLEASE!!! GET YO LIFE!!

I will never reveal or try to be something I am not. I am not looking for bragging rights or credit, stop trying be me. Your life is your choices.

If one of my darkest secrets by the time I am 60 + is the same as this acquaintance, somebody please NEVER STOP PRAYING FOR ME!!

If you have not found happiness within that 50-60 age, please do not blame others or get so jealous because others have. That is your deepest regret and secret. 

Let everyone understand that I DO NOT REGRET one moment of my life. I'm just repairing and patching up a road that needed some reconstruction because so many people need this route and cannot pass through unless I'm repaired. Repair has begun & I'm a not new, I'm the same me, not the old me and I will not let people wear me out that I will need to be rebuild, but repairs is always necessary. Live your life the way you want or one day your parts will not be able to be repaired.

**Juswhoim

What l Watch Has Influence

Favorite Shows All Wrapped in One Message

I am not a fan of televisions and social media has become and will be non-existence for me. I realized so much since I graduated and one of the biggest questions I ask myself do I continue to build an Empire, but I realize, I did that so long ago. My Empire needs just needs Leverage and I prefer Power. 

Having Power is having control of myself. In a world with some much Political Scandals, like I am living in CSI Miami and look what is going on, such much American Crime, that has been publicized and written about for centuries. So why is everyone so upset, so angry to the point that they Snapped! 

Do we not see that TV might be part of what is the cause of many problems or is it the music, reality shows that we go and follow these characters when it is all entertainment.

I always say you never know what is really going on behind closed doors, even right next door.  I refuse to live in fear or captive. Everyone has a story, a thought, a opinion, feelings, and beliefs.

People have rights to live as who they are and love the things that is attractive to them, through their eyes.

I know for me, I have accomplished and achieved so much and I am not finish. Like they say "God puts his strongest soldiers on battlefield". I say Bring it!

Oh, I forgot to mention. I been craving  and missing her so much, I don't know if I will ever try her again or ever get over her, Mary Jane. You will always be my best friend, I desire and want you, but some temptations we have to fight. Until we meet again, somewhere private and alone, where there is no distraction, where there will no longer be a Debate. LEGALIZE IT!

***My opinions, my thoughts, my writing is not too change or reflect on anyone's personal lives**

DEDICATED  TO ALL LIVES MATTERS** My Prayers & Condolence to ALL that have lost someone so close to your heart, that you feel like you can no longer breath again.