Beauty of Writing

The Beauty of Writing..................

WOW, so I know I just pop up and don't blog for months, but I always make mental notes or pull out a pen, paper and start writing. I take pictures of my journeys and accomplishments. I haven't hung around the same people or done,the things I use to do. I want to see things in a different view and different atmosphere. 
I have lost many friends along my journey. Just when you think you have no more tears left something and someone you love is gone. Each death is a different feeling, a different loss.
Writing is where I can express myself, things I want to scream out on social media, but some things are not meant for every place circulating in space.  People may not agree and have the right and I am not looking for justification, but I will always be a voice, I didn't study Humanitarian for no reason. This is why I have a blog. My blog is used to say what the fuck I want to say and how I want to say it, without sugar-coating shit.
Now, What makes are brain tick, what makes us do the things we do? There will never be a straight answer or conclusion, theories and IDC how many studies that been conducted. We do everything for reasons.
I have gone to particular places for particular reasons and trying to determine if environmental factors play part in our behavior or play part of what makes us react the way we do.  OF COURSE, it doesn't take a Scientist to figure it out. LOL.
I will always determine a cause by the way people treat me...whether it is the texture of my hair or reflection of skin tone (HELL NO, I am NOT going there on BLM), but I look more so comparing; regions, cultures, religion, environments, and just people in general. There is always going to be a difference and to those who have never explore or wander will forever be lost.
I am so City, so East Coast, and sometimes downright hood! So to visit Midwest was nerve-racking, but curious. I always hear that I am such a people person, where sometimes I cannot stand being around people but I think the person that says that, sees deeper in me, where if I am not around people, I feel a lack of sensation. People have always just came up to me and just start talking. I treat people accordingly. If you act like you want no bother, same. If you act ignorant, I'm going to give you my ass to kiss. If you act like you did not see me, I clearly see you and twist up my lips. Don't let me catch you taking a peek because those twisted lips can turn to a quick fake ass smile in a heartbeat.
I started back going on dates and I been known that single life is for me so talking to me about relationship and love is not one of my biggest topic. I try things and if I don't like it, I don't try it again...
Ok, I am lying. I don't mean to try it again, but I have just had to see if it had the same affect/effect.
Writing is a stress reliever, poetry, eye-opener,analyzing, thrilling, and interesting. I have not read a good book since I got sick of reading during college. I have wrote books that I have still not published and it will forever be an artifact. So when that day comes and goes, I know my family will find writings and read how I truly felt and my heart is always aiming for good intentions, regardless how rude I can be.
Remember to live like it is your last day and do it your way. Stop trying please everyone except for you. Just do u! Believe in something and do the unbelievable, my only difference is I pray several times a day and I thank God for forgiveness.

**This writing was done last year. I am just getting a chance to prepare & share**

I dedicate this to my-close friends that I consider family; May you continue to rest well my beauties; Dana Cam, John, &  Liv. 💔💔💔💔

Rip to Great Hip Hop Legend

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I'm going there

Relationships
Do you believe in compatiblity, astrology or do you just dive in & go for it?
Don't compare yourself to anyone's  or any body's  relationship.  Ever relationship is different. What can look like the most happiest family or couple can be real or not happy at all.
People have to grow on each other or you can have instant connection, attraction, whether physically or sexually. 
Do you go in a relationship after your relationship started as casual sex?  Don't complicate shit! We all know once u commit to being sex buddies & try something different, it can fuck it up or become something special. (it's a fk up..ijs)
If you been in a drunken love... that right there is fkn crazy, exciting, but fkn scary sober 😂😂😂
(Not that I ever done it 😉)
Go with the flow..you can have a meaningful & long lasting relationship with anyone that you desire, But you BOTH have to be on the same page at all times! Even including how you raise children, do you want children?

⚠ ⚠ Get all that preliminaries out the way before proceeding ⚠ ⚠

Women if you see red flag ⛳ in the beginning..it is a RED FKN FLAG...DO NOT PROCEED WITHOUT YA GUARDS UP.
If a man lays it out there, it's real. Don't think you can change them now or later.
Maintaining is key. How would you keep the relationship vibrant, healthy, the way it was in the beginning, is this a relationship... blah..blah..blah
Stop trying to guess & ask the person. Never speculate & most important..NEVER EVER blame yourself.
Women, we are Queens and never take the crown off unless YOU take it off! NEVER EVER let anyone belittle you. Don't make excuses or keep  allowing people to tell you about your insecurities because we all have those. If you know you have self-esteem issues, BUILD YOURSELF 2 THE HIGHEST BECAUSE YES, YOU ARE ALL THAT & MORE.
What we have between our legs is a POWERFUL & DEADLY WEAPON 💪Use it wisely 👌

I was told so much but that still won't work or make me do freaky things unless I want. You will not force me into any situation unless I allow it. I was told I am and maybe I will be a old hagged, but no I won't be dried up 😂😂
I am different & I cannot train or tell anyone what to do in relationships. I support people and try not to judge, but I do ask, why do you allow or put up with it, but I know how love makes you do crazy things. My intentions are different, my confidence is too high, I am either 2 aggressive or not aggressive enough.. Relationship is work and keep self-satisfaction is necessary to have first. I never had to bow down and when a man does tell me about myself, I am turned on because if you telling me about who I really am, you are the man because I am not easy to figure out by no means, but I think I can play many roles and not even give up a nibble & I survives without you or with you, but all of this is a choice.
You're not Ike and I damn sure am not Tina, but I will role play if you try to make me eat the cake (NO PHYSICAL ABUSE, I DON'T PLAY THAT) 👊👊 But who am I? #JusWhoIM
You are powerful as humanly possible.
***You Never know what is going on behind closed doors***